Pause went to fast forward. Don't have blog at new work, never mind a minute to write anything. I love it though.
I did right this the other day though:
"Being 11/11/08 I've been thinking about history. I don't know much about it. I do know what I feel though – I feel proud of the people who fought and died for our country. I have no idea of the politics involved, I have no idea if I agree with whoever made the decision to go to war, but I do agree with every single person who willingly or grudgingly fought for our country, our freedom and our lives. Thank you – whoever and wherever you are now.
"There's no *need* to be anything anymore. No need to be brave. No need to be strong. No need to be resilient. No need to work for supper. No need to care for yourself and your family. No need to behave appropriately. No need to commit. No need to be loyal. No need to keep your opinion to yourself. No need to consider the point of view of other people.
"Life goes on. Move on. Get over it. Restart. Get a new job. Get a new house. Get new friends. I'm as bad as anyone for that, I know. Doesn't mean I like it or I'm proud of it. I wish I was stronger, but I'm not. But I've also never *needed* to be."
Anyway, this last couple of weeks went a little mad. After I don't know how many weekends of being in Edinburgh, and no projects to speak of, I now have too many. It's great. I feel almost human. Not quite, but almost. Right now I blame the migraine.
Anyway, some things in the last few weeks:
-- my parents moved house
-- I started a new job
-- I bought a new duvet (mmmm....)
-- my dog died
-- my gran is poorly
-- I am on the board for PGP
-- I did the orchestra accounts
-- am in the process of shoe boxes for charity
-- still can't play the stupid Berlioz
-- went to Manchester and saw lovely people
-- went to Bradford and saw different lovely people
-- going to see the new parental house this weekend*
-- my window now closes
-- got rid of my bus pass
-- joined the gym and got good at going, but haven't had time in 2 weeks
-- went for drinks with old work
-- went for drinks with new work
-- have sewing projects on the go
-- I don't really sleep
Generally it's been quite mad. Am rather happy though. I just wish there was a bus home from orchestra. Or I could get straps for my 'cello case that means I can carry him on both shoulders.
There's still quite a lot to brain digest though.
*Gran health depending. Must remember a map. And painting clothes. And need to find out which neighbour I might need to introduce myself to get a key.
Pause
I'm still on pause.
Went home last weekend for the last time. I haven't decided how I feel about that yet. There's so much stuff there. And so many memories. But I'm sure the memories will stay with me. It's only a house. I guess I'll see when I go to the new house, whenever that is. I hope I can get home for Christmas. I won't find out if I can until starting New Job. Pause.
I think I want to be an interior designer.
Friday night in Manchester was lovely. It was great to be back and feel at home. I do think about moving back sometimes. I can't, but I do think about it. Part of that is to do with here, not just there. I don't feel like I fit at the moment. Except at home - I love the new flat, mostly. There are some rubbish bits, like that it's freezing, but good housemates make it all fine. But outside of home I appear to have lost a social life.
I hope my new job does fix everything that I think it will.
Oh, this all appears to be sad.
I bought new shoes! Patchwork Skechers. Beautiful. And comfortable. For walking to New Work. Ha ha - that looks a little like I'm going to walk to New York. Maybe I will. Go live with Melissa.
I've got so many craft projects that I'm in the middle of (ERIN! I'm sorry), so yesterday I started a new one. I'm not very good at any of them though.
I'm off to provide proof that I exist, haven't broken the law, and have been employed for 3 years. Wish me luck!
Went home last weekend for the last time. I haven't decided how I feel about that yet. There's so much stuff there. And so many memories. But I'm sure the memories will stay with me. It's only a house. I guess I'll see when I go to the new house, whenever that is. I hope I can get home for Christmas. I won't find out if I can until starting New Job. Pause.
I think I want to be an interior designer.
Friday night in Manchester was lovely. It was great to be back and feel at home. I do think about moving back sometimes. I can't, but I do think about it. Part of that is to do with here, not just there. I don't feel like I fit at the moment. Except at home - I love the new flat, mostly. There are some rubbish bits, like that it's freezing, but good housemates make it all fine. But outside of home I appear to have lost a social life.
I hope my new job does fix everything that I think it will.
Oh, this all appears to be sad.
I bought new shoes! Patchwork Skechers. Beautiful. And comfortable. For walking to New Work. Ha ha - that looks a little like I'm going to walk to New York. Maybe I will. Go live with Melissa.
I've got so many craft projects that I'm in the middle of (ERIN! I'm sorry), so yesterday I started a new one. I'm not very good at any of them though.
I'm off to provide proof that I exist, haven't broken the law, and have been employed for 3 years. Wish me luck!
*Must remember that this gets uploaded to Facebook*
I'm confused this week by people knowing things that are in my blog. Yes, you are allowed to read them. No, I don't expect you to. Especially not if I see you at least once a week and you already know everything in my life. I'm happy that you do though. :-)
I like the word "turmoil".
This weekend was quiet, and one might almost say dull. Not that I didn't have a nice time. Saturday afternoon/evening was lovely - seeing Katrina and Ali for the first time in ages. But throughout I had a headache which worsened until I had to go home. But it did kind of dull the experience of the day, if that makes sense? Good. Spent Sunday afternoon crafting at Nikki's. Was fun. The rest of the time I just frittered away with things like washing and joining the gym and putting stuff all around my room in an attempt to tidy.
I also did some tidying and sorting, but by no means all of it. And I signed up to the gym/pool, so now I have to go. I've discovered the pool is open early on Tuesdays and Thursdays, so I might go before work. We'll see... I wonder what the gym opening times are... Maybe I'll find out at my induction tomorrow evening.
I'm getting a new mattress tomorrow. Whoppeee!!!!!!
My tooth just fell out.
I like the word "turmoil".
This weekend was quiet, and one might almost say dull. Not that I didn't have a nice time. Saturday afternoon/evening was lovely - seeing Katrina and Ali for the first time in ages. But throughout I had a headache which worsened until I had to go home. But it did kind of dull the experience of the day, if that makes sense? Good. Spent Sunday afternoon crafting at Nikki's. Was fun. The rest of the time I just frittered away with things like washing and joining the gym and putting stuff all around my room in an attempt to tidy.
I also did some tidying and sorting, but by no means all of it. And I signed up to the gym/pool, so now I have to go. I've discovered the pool is open early on Tuesdays and Thursdays, so I might go before work. We'll see... I wonder what the gym opening times are... Maybe I'll find out at my induction tomorrow evening.
I'm getting a new mattress tomorrow. Whoppeee!!!!!!
My tooth just fell out.
International Wear A Dress Day...
... was on Monday. I did not know.
Sad.
And I think I wasn't even wearing a skirt. I was unpacking and stuff, so was in jeans. I don't know why - jeans don't fit me. I should have been wearing a dress.
Sad.
But today I am wearing my hideous dress. Whoop whoop!
I've been crafting. It's nice. I won't tell you what, because it is a surprise. Which is a little silly, as many people here know. So it's not a surprise for anyone in Edinburgh. :-)
Oh, and it's probably not for you, if you think it is. OK?
We've been watching Lost in Austen at Craft Night. This causes much shouting at the TV* (Nikki) and then shouting at Nikki (Me). It's not real! It's not supposed to be Pride and Prejudice! It's fictional. It doesn't even contain Elizabeth Bennett. And Mary - it's a TV programme. That's how her hair is so perfect.
It's ace - it's the first programme in ages that I actually want to watch (other than The Bill). And we all get entirely different enjoyment out of it. And Wickham is hot. HOT!
I would like to note that it took 4 Google searches to find the name of the actor that plays Wickham. It is not on the ITV site, or IMDb, which is weird as when I found it out (Tom Riley) it is on his IMDb page.
Arrggh, argggh, arrrrgh! There's only one more episode!
Calm down.
I had a wonderful conversation with Uncle Bert last night. Note: when trying to help an octogenarian with computers, find out if they have a PC or Mac first.
I think that's all for now. It's been a long week.
*Or computer, as yesterday we watched it on the internet. Fancy. It did freeze on the lake scene though.
Sad.
And I think I wasn't even wearing a skirt. I was unpacking and stuff, so was in jeans. I don't know why - jeans don't fit me. I should have been wearing a dress.
Sad.
But today I am wearing my hideous dress. Whoop whoop!
I've been crafting. It's nice. I won't tell you what, because it is a surprise. Which is a little silly, as many people here know. So it's not a surprise for anyone in Edinburgh. :-)
Oh, and it's probably not for you, if you think it is. OK?
We've been watching Lost in Austen at Craft Night. This causes much shouting at the TV* (Nikki) and then shouting at Nikki (Me). It's not real! It's not supposed to be Pride and Prejudice! It's fictional. It doesn't even contain Elizabeth Bennett. And Mary - it's a TV programme. That's how her hair is so perfect.
It's ace - it's the first programme in ages that I actually want to watch (other than The Bill). And we all get entirely different enjoyment out of it. And Wickham is hot. HOT!
I would like to note that it took 4 Google searches to find the name of the actor that plays Wickham. It is not on the ITV site, or IMDb, which is weird as when I found it out (Tom Riley) it is on his IMDb page.
Arrggh, argggh, arrrrgh! There's only one more episode!
Calm down.
I had a wonderful conversation with Uncle Bert last night. Note: when trying to help an octogenarian with computers, find out if they have a PC or Mac first.
I think that's all for now. It's been a long week.
*Or computer, as yesterday we watched it on the internet. Fancy. It did freeze on the lake scene though.
New House!
So, I've moved. It's done. The old house looks much better without all my stuff in it. And it's all cleaned and ready for inspection. If we don't get our full deposit back, I might have to kick some ass...
The new house is lovely! Gesine's room is entirely ready and tidy, and Eoin's is not far off. He's still debating where to put furniture, as the room is quite narrow, but he's almost there.
My room is still a tip. What a surprise. I do have places for everything though! Just need to put up the new shelves, and arrange my craft stuff. And then I need to take put my shoes in to the hangy shoe things I bought at Ikea. Currently they are in 1 large box and 2 big Ikea bags. And probably some other places too. Then I'm done.
Bad things:
We don't have a key for the main door.
The kettle doesn't work.
The microwave is gross.
The mattresses on mine and Gesine's bed are rubbish.
Eoin's room possibly has rising damp.
Shower is a bit rubbish.
Good things:
I love the kitchen/living room.
I love the period features in my room.
There's a space for everything.
Everything in the kitchen is clean*.
We have internet and phone.
The fridge is massive.
I like Eoin and Gesine.
Generally, it's made of win. Even with the bad list. So there.
Had dentist this morning. He's not as hot as I remember. Apparently this is because Nikki ate the other dentist after he drew a sexy dental picture.
Not sure if I have any other news. That will do for now. There will be more to come about the job soon, I hope.
*Thanks to my wonderful Mummy.
The new house is lovely! Gesine's room is entirely ready and tidy, and Eoin's is not far off. He's still debating where to put furniture, as the room is quite narrow, but he's almost there.
My room is still a tip. What a surprise. I do have places for everything though! Just need to put up the new shelves, and arrange my craft stuff. And then I need to take put my shoes in to the hangy shoe things I bought at Ikea. Currently they are in 1 large box and 2 big Ikea bags. And probably some other places too. Then I'm done.
Bad things:
We don't have a key for the main door.
The kettle doesn't work.
The microwave is gross.
The mattresses on mine and Gesine's bed are rubbish.
Eoin's room possibly has rising damp.
Shower is a bit rubbish.
Good things:
I love the kitchen/living room.
I love the period features in my room.
There's a space for everything.
Everything in the kitchen is clean*.
We have internet and phone.
The fridge is massive.
I like Eoin and Gesine.
Generally, it's made of win. Even with the bad list. So there.
Had dentist this morning. He's not as hot as I remember. Apparently this is because Nikki ate the other dentist after he drew a sexy dental picture.
Not sure if I have any other news. That will do for now. There will be more to come about the job soon, I hope.
*Thanks to my wonderful Mummy.
I am the music man
Bizarrely, I have The Music Man stuck in my head. Combined with a lovely song called Little Twig. This morning in the shower I was singing the song from Blood Brothers cause it had just been on Showtime. I quite want to be in a show. This isn't going to happen really, as I'm busy Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays this term. Silver jewellery making class, Craft Night, orchestra. And I'm going to join the gym near my new house. I'm going to be busy, but in a happy way.
So, I've been a bit busy. The festival happened. I can't remember what I blogged about it. I was determined not to get ill, then I forgot and went and got ill. Then a million people stayed at my house at once, and it was fun, if not a little lacking in sleep. Then me and Jennifer and Melissa went to find Nessie. Then Melissa had to leave and me and Jennifer went visiting relatives. We went to the one man castle and to see fish jumping and to see dolphins (we failed, but found moon rock and a fly) and swimming with the cousins and to the beach and park in the dark. Got back, watched the fireworks, Jen left.
Then I got a new job.
On Friday/Saturday I move house.
Maybe after both of those things are sorted I will get a whole night's sleep and maybe I will not have a headache and feel sick.
But maybe not. Maybe it's something else that's stressing me. We will find out.
I am not particularly looking forward to moving, because I have lots of stuff. However, I am looking forward to seeing Mummy and Daddy. I can tell them all about my job. And they will look after me. And I will see Jodie (dog). And they will make me be sensible.
I don't know why I'm writing like a child today. Probably due to the lack of sleep and feeling rubbish and wanting everything to go away. Except my friends. I want lots of friends right now.
So, I've been a bit busy. The festival happened. I can't remember what I blogged about it. I was determined not to get ill, then I forgot and went and got ill. Then a million people stayed at my house at once, and it was fun, if not a little lacking in sleep. Then me and Jennifer and Melissa went to find Nessie. Then Melissa had to leave and me and Jennifer went visiting relatives. We went to the one man castle and to see fish jumping and to see dolphins (we failed, but found moon rock and a fly) and swimming with the cousins and to the beach and park in the dark. Got back, watched the fireworks, Jen left.
Then I got a new job.
On Friday/Saturday I move house.
Maybe after both of those things are sorted I will get a whole night's sleep and maybe I will not have a headache and feel sick.
But maybe not. Maybe it's something else that's stressing me. We will find out.
I am not particularly looking forward to moving, because I have lots of stuff. However, I am looking forward to seeing Mummy and Daddy. I can tell them all about my job. And they will look after me. And I will see Jodie (dog). And they will make me be sensible.
I don't know why I'm writing like a child today. Probably due to the lack of sleep and feeling rubbish and wanting everything to go away. Except my friends. I want lots of friends right now.
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