After Roskilde

10th July – Work. I had loads of hours to make up at work, so I did lots and then did nothing in the evening.
11th July – Work. Was going to meet Adam for a drink, but he cancelled due to headache, which was quite relieving as I was knackered. But I miss Adam.
12th July – Felt awful and had a nose bleed, so didn’t go to work. Went to orchestra, but not pub as felt sick.
13th July – No work again. Ventured all the way to Morningside to the library as I needed entertaining. I also bought a new washing up bowl as ours appeared to have fallen out the window and broken. As if Alex didn’t notice… But it showed how ill I was when I looked for about 5 minutes for a price, then asked, and it was right there. Ill. In the evening I was going to meet James, but he cancelled, which was good for my body.
Also in those past few days I had something for August and something else for September cancelled. I was feeling a bit lonely.
14th July – Put up my tent to wash it. Shaun was in town with his family, so I went to see them for a bit in the afternoon. Was going to go out for the evening, but I got arranged kidnapped by my parents and went to Carnoustie as they were going there for the golf the following week. I helped put up the awning and tent. I like building things. Carla was great at hitting in pegs with the mallet. She’s 5. . Had a lovely evening with Mummy and Daddy and Katherine. Slept in Katherine’s tent on an airbed. Bliss. I later discovered Dave had also been in Carnoustie and failed to find chips. We got some. Ha ha
15th July – In the morning Katherine took me and Gary to the golf Open. Nothing much was happening, as it was the practise before the practise round. But Katherine was very excited about it, as she’s been every year for ages and wanted me to see why they enjoy it. True, there were rather a lot of cute men. I can see her point. But the Scottish Masters was still being played at Loch Lomond, so no-one was in Carnoustie yet. We had to go through airport security to get in, which was quite exciting. And Gary got in free as he’s a juvenile and had a sign on his wrist to prove it. Then we went to see Gran, who seemed fine. She was just off to the pub for a coffee! She’s muddling along. I should go and see her more. Well, should is the wrong word. I want to go and see her more, so I should make more effort to make that happen. We then picked up the other Townsends and went to the beach! Except the tide was in… Oops. So we went to the paddling pool and I got soaked for sitting on the train. Went to watch Harry Potter with Andy when I got back. It was AMAZING! I got so into it. I enjoyed it far more than I thought I would.
16th July – Work. Then watched Die Hard.
17th July – Work. Then watched Die Hard II.
18th July – Work. Then watched Die Hard III.
19th July – Work was a very varied event. Some parts of the day I hated so much and though were ridiculous, and some points I thought were ace and exactly what I wanted to do. I can’t decide at the moment if I want to stay for ages and try really hard, or if I want to look for something else... Orchestra -we had a guest conductor, Fiona. It was hilarious! I’m not sure that should be what a rehearsal is, but it was ace. Fiona is funny, and the people who were there enjoyed every minute. It was fun. But I still didn’t feel up to the pub after, so I didn’t go.
20th July – Work. Then ceilidh! For Andy’s birthday. Teannaich were playing at Pollock Halls. I hate ceilidhs there. There is not enough room. The people who go are morons (generally speaking, not the people I know). So it’s really impossible to learn anything and dance. But the band are ace and the caller is hilarious and VERy attractive. Housemate Erin had friends up to visit. Heather and Steve have been before, and I really like them! They are fun. Suzanne and Shawn were visiting Heather and Steve, so there were 4 visiting Canadians. Somehow Suzanne and Shawn didn’t understand what a ceilidh was, so didn’t get into it. I was pretty mad that they didn’t even try one dance. I tried… I walked home with Erin and avoided the after ceilidh gathering for various reasons including tiredness and not liking certain people and not feeling confident enough to be liked by the others.
21st July – Walked to town in the morning and visited Mary in the shop she works in. It’s the perfect job! She gets to decorate balloons and plays with glitter and sparkly things and all sorts of party related things. FUN! I then bought a bra specifically for that evening’s dress and then went to Nikki’s new flat to help. It’s a lovely flat! I helped put up pictures and hang clothes and remove annoying blue tack. Then went home and got ready for Josie and Dave’s engagement party. They are so lovely. I hardly talked to them all night though. Oops. Talked to Jay mostly, and also Mary and Will and others. Went back to Simon’s flat after where there was a mini party. I love Simon’s flat, but I think I’m going to decline the option to move in there. It’s a tricky decision. Will have to talk to him again.
22nd July – Pretty much nothing! Was quite hung-over. Then got a monthly visitor, so I stayed in bed ALL day pretty much!
23rd July – Work.
24th July – Work. Dave’s birthday. Nick’s birthday. Went to the pub to see them. It was nice. But I didn’t take any presents or anything cause I hadn’t got that sorted yet. I will, I will…
25th July – Today. Melissa's Birthday. Work – Left home at 7 and got to Campbeltown about 12.30. It’s far away! Did work, then decided to go on a walk. I’d found an island (well, I suspect I’m not the first one to find it – you know what I mean) and decided I wanted to walk to the top of it. It’s one of those islands that you can walk to in low tide (they probably have fancy name* – I’d look it up if I had wikipedia!) and seemed to be a hill. I thought exercise and fresh air is a good plan, and I might not get the chance again. So I went to Woolworths and bought sandals (wasn’t doing it in heels!) and a t-shirt and set off – was only 2 hours until the walkway would be gone. I got there to find a sign for cave drawings, so instead of going to the top, I turned right. This was a ridiculous idea. To get to the caves was very rocky, and I was wearing sandals. I found a cave and remembered that I’m really quite scared of caves after watching that stupid film about the girl climbers who go into caves and find people who are so far adapted into cave living that they aren’t really people anymore. So I wouldn’t go into the cave, even thought it I could see the back and I knew it wasn’t very deep and there was nothing in there. I’m such a wus. But I kept walking as I couldn’t see any drawings and naively thought they might just be a little farther. I managed to scare myself into a tizzy – there were vultures (buzzards!) circling overhead, and a mountain goat carcass which they had obviously devoured on the rocks. I wouldn’t go into the other caves either, and since getting back realise how stupid it was that I didn’t even see the drawing. Oops. Anyway, I refused to walk past the dead goat again, so I kept walking. I was sure that the other side of the island would have sand and I’d get back to the walkway in no time. No such luck. Rocks, rocks, rocks. I twisted my ankle a couple of times. I had so many visions of me falling, banging my head, the tide coming in, etc. I got stung by nettles and many scratches from ferns. But I made it back alive! And had a paddle in the sea on the way. It was warm on one side of the walkway and cold on the other side. Interesting.

Shona from The High Life is in The Bill. That is amusing me a lot. Especially as how serious she is. I just want her to call someone a big nancy numpty or something. And Darren Day is in this episode. I love The Bill. I think I’m only going to do overnight work trips on Wednesdays from now on so I can watch it without getting a TV.

*I looked it up. It’s a tidal island. Not that fancy… But there doesn’t appear to be many of them in the world. I have been to 3 or 4, I can’t remember. So I better not count it. And I better not count the one we have a jigsaw of. I might try to go to more…

Void

I’ve been doing some mega thinking recently – after watching Garden State and reading a book called The Shape of My Heart. I thought it was a girly booked from the title and the pink cover and the theme of love. But it wasn’t. I liked it a lot though.

Anyway, to my point: voids. [BTW this is going to be emo, you have been warned]

There’s a theory that we all go through live trying to fill a void inside us. We all do different things for this – relationships, hobbies, jobs, holidays, etc. to try to fill this void. Everyone’s is a different size to start with, or at least we notice them to a different extent. I think I like this theory. And now I am trying to work out what my void is wanting. To be fair, this means very little to how I live my life. I just now don’t mind that there is a void. I feel more normal about it now it has a name, and it appears to be experienced by other people. It’s all just fine and dandy.

I do worry that what I think will help fill my void won’t. I think I know what I want and need. I don’t know how to get it – it’s not something that I can have any control over. But what if I’m wrong?

But that’s not worth worrying about really. I just do occasionally, usually just for about 5 minutes. I like having an occasional wallow.

The phrase “help fill my void” is ridiculous.

Blogs

I’m writing lots of blogs. I’m very behind. I need to catch up. I’ve been very lazy blog-wise. It didn’t start off as laze. It started off as not feeling exciting enough, then I went on holiday and there was a load to blog about. Then I got back and didn’t have anything to say again. I couldn’t even really decide what to say about the festival. I couldn’t decide about anything and nothing that I had been doing. Then it all just got too much to write. But today I am inspired and I’m giving it a go. But it is 10pm already, and I’ve not done much. I’m in a hotel with Chinese takeaway and pear cider and work’s laptop. This could be a long night… But that would be a bad idea, as tomorrow I have to drive all the way back to the ‘Burgh and then I’ve got orchestra after work. It’s the last one of the term. I hope it’s fun. I want to go to the pub afterwards. I haven’t done that for weeks. I’ve been too tired.
Anyway, this isn’t me writing blogs. I need to write what happened before I forget.

Well, really, I need to get over being worried about forgetting what I did ona particular day. Why do I care? Why do I need to know what I did every day for years?

I don’t know. But I do. So I will.

BTW, I had to open the pear cider bottles with a teaspoon. I’m quite proud of that.

(I did cut two fingers on first attempt. Second was far easier. By the third I’ll have it cracked!)

I really can't be bothered thinking of a title...

5/6/7 - Went over to Adam's for the evening. Was a good catch up. I love Adam. We are such geeks though. Listened to cover songs and ordered takeaway online. It was ace knowing that they couldn't get it wrong cause it was typed, rather than misheard over the phone. And it was yummy.


6/6/7 - Don't remember. Think I just hung out with Erin for the evening. And by "just", I don't mean that it wasn't fun. I mean that it's not for writing about.


7/6/7 - I cheered up after a dream about a friend who I have a crush on. But I'd forgotten all about it/him. But my dream reminded me, and I lost the grump that I'd had for a while. Then I had orchestra. It was weird, cause it's the summer and less people turn up. And our conductor was late, so we had someone else. So all odd. And by the end of the rehearsal I was feeling awful. So I went home and not to the pub.

8/6/7 - Feeling awful turned into a cold. Grump. After work I went to find Auntie* Linda at the train station. It took me ages to get there, so I wasn't there when her train arrived, so I had to ring mummy to get numbers, and then spoke to her husband to get the right number, and eventually found her. She was in Jenner's, shopping. I'm not sure if she had a plan other than "arrive in Edinburgh". Strange. Anyway, we went back to my flat and Auntie* Helen arrived for a nosey and then we bought BBQ stuff and went to the campsite. I helped Daddy with the awning and Helen with the tent. I'm useful. Then I drank wine. Helen gave me a lift back, which was ace.

9/6/7 - Daddy came over in the morning and we went to a bike charity shop to give them 2 old bikes, and then we went to buy me a tent. I got neither of the ones I was thinking of. We then went back to the campsite and had lunch and went for a walk. I was feeling pretty rubbish by then, so had a nap. I snored in time with the dog, apparently. She is the loudest snorer EVER. I put my tent up to test it. Look:




It is cute AND sensible. Mummy and Helen and Linda then arrive back, with Auntie* Sue. They had been at a school reunion, so had lots of stories that I didn't understand at all. They had a DVD of a tour of the school, and I discovered why my mum is so posh sometimes. Was going to go meet Mark for a drink, but was completely knocked out with cold still, so went to bed.

10/6/7 - Woke Mark up by ringing him at 12 and forced him to get up. Went for lovely lunch with Mark and Erin and Dan and Olivia. Yum! I really should meet Dan and Olivia when Mark isn't here. Well, when he is here too, but it shouldn't be just when he's here. I should steal his friends. Mwah ha ha ha. Think I did nothing more after Mark left except watch DVDs and grump about being ill still.

11/6/7 - Recorder rehearsal. First half was awful, but it got better. It makes more sense with both violin parts there.



12/6/7 - Went to Kingussie with work, before travelling to Aviemore to my hotel for the night. The hotel I was supposed to be in was overbooked, so they upgraded me for free. Woo! Ace room. I went shopping a little - it's an outdoorsy kind of town, so I went looking for useful things for my trip. I bought a holdall. Not sure if I'll get something more suitable, but it might do... I then got food and went back to hibernate in my room, and discovered I'd lost the stupid card key. It'd fallen out of the ill fitting card. Grrr! I was rescued, and then I stayed in my room all night with TV and bath and nail varnish and magazines and books. Ace.


13/6/7 - Left my beautiful hotel (after discovering a conference of men in suits - where were they the night before?! I should have gone to the bar) and ventured to Grantown-on-Spey and then Inverness, before the long drive home. I did manage to stop in Pitlochry to take a picture of a sign that Erin's Mom wanted:


'Nuff said. Got back and watched some Arrested Development before bed. I love that show.

14/6/7 - I was mostly tired. So tired. I need to start getting enough sleep! Oh well. So I went straight home... After an evening of samba drumming. I keep getting the words samba and salsa mixed up. That's confusing. But it was a fun evening of hitting drums and cow bells that weren't called cow bells.

15/6/7 - I spent most mostly want a VW camper van. I went for a very long lunch with the team from my old job. It's funny - I've been in this new one as long as I was there, but still feel like I know more about that old job. And I feel like that job was harder, even though I get paid far more here. Most of them haven't seen me with my glasses. Or the coat that I wear all the time! So they haven't seen me since America. Or, in fact, Christmas. Was ace though. But with long lunch and then leaving early, my flexi time got a battering. Oops. I left at 3.30 to get the train to Lancaster! Met up with Helen and Lolly and had a lovely evening of pizza and wine and then shots in Revolution. We discovered that all the men in Lancaster are students or dumb.

16/6/7 - A slow get up followed by a cooked breakfast started the say well. Helen was being a fantastic hostess and made us breakfast and then ate fruit instead. Weirdo. We then ventured into town to find Charlotte and lunch. Basically, we just kept eating. And talking. Charlotte bought me and ace necklace/earrings for my birthday. I bought a cow print tripod stool thing, an airbed with built in pump and a pan set for camping. Then we found Archie and afternoon tea. Oh, Danny appeared occasionally too. He's got a funny beard. We went back to Helen's flat and played Jenga and then got ready to go out. Charlotte had to head back to Manchester, which was poo, but I'm glad I saw her. We (me, Helen, Archie, Lolly) then headed out to various bars ending up in Hustle, which is a cheesy club. They were playing roulette and black jack upstairs. The lady doing roulette was lovely and fun. We "gambled" for about 3 hours. I say "gambled" because she kept giving us our money back if we lost. Eventually we won a pitched of alcohol, and by this time we'd gained a couple of blokes. They helped us pick a bright blue pitcher of some description. Nice. I'd been ready to go to bed at about 11. I was so tired. But somehow managed to stay away until we got kicked out of the club (about 4.30) and didn't get into The Lounge, so the four of us and 4 random blokes came back to Helen's. There was more drinking and Jenga and other activities resulting in me sleeping in a corridor for about an hour.

17/6/7 - Got up about 10 (see above to work out I was up till 9am - hardcore!) and cleaned and showered and stuff, before making the boys get up and drink tea. We eventually got our stuff together and headed to Weatherspoons. I forgot that I'd bought so much stuff, and that I'd now have to carry it. Grump. Train was uneventful and I got back into my house just after 7. Lovely

18/6/7 - Just checked my little sister on facebook. She has been on for 8 days and has 109 friends. I've got 311. She better not catch up.


I'm a bit anxious. I'm not really sure why. It could be my birthday. I generally have one good year and then two rubbish ones. I'm pretty sure this doesn't have to be the case. But still, what if the next two years suck? I don't fancy that much. But I could just be worried about the concert I'm doing tonight, as I can't play it and the composer's daughter is coming to watch. Or I could be worried about camping for 8 days. What if I'm not good at it? Or it could be something else. Like seeing Housemate Alex after he's been away for ages. What if he's not happy about me asking him for money whilst he's been away? What if he's grumpy that we're having a party? Or something I've not even considered yet. Hmmm... I have been grumpy for far too long now. I hope I work out why soon and make it stop. Camping will probably fix it, if I don't manage before then. Must take writing paper and pens.


*I don't generally call them Auntie. It was for explanation purposes.

Tents

So... I need a tent to go to Denmark with. I want to get this one (in pink), but people at work have been picking on me. Evelyn says I should get this one, which would be an ace idea if it was big enough. Maybe I should get a sensible one. But I want to be able to recognise it. And I've been advised against painting anything incase that makes it not waterproof...

Any suggestions?! I'm going to take Daddy advice this weekend. I'm sure we'll sort it.

I also need a sleeping bag (mine is not very transportable and about 15 years old) and stove, etc...

Smokin'

http://www.scotland.gov.uk/News/Releases/2007/06/05104113

That excites me. I wonder if they will eventually do my suggestion of raising it slowly year by year? It'd be funny to be able to start smoking ages 40.

So, an update?

17/5/7 - I went to Lostock and had tea at my parents. The house changes every time. But it's still home. It's just odd when stuff changes, isn't it?
18/5/7 - I adventured to Todmorden to visit Rebecca (from old work) and Madeline (her tiny baby daughter). It was lovely to see them! And Todmorden is very pretty. Then I went with Mummy and Daddy to Wales. Katherine met us there, and we stayed at Jennifer's house. She appears to live in adventure holiday residence. There is even a kayak. But it is also fun. I slept on a high up bed that creaked, and K & J thought they were going to be squished.
19/5/7 - We went to Bangor pier and then to Anglesey to a beach, that wasn't beach, it was sea bed and then to a town and looked in windows. Lunch was then eaten (you ALL should try the scones from the end of Bangor pier) before driving back to Lostock. I then deserted the family and went to Manchester for fun and frolics. I love Hardy's Well. I love everybody who came to say hi. I love Wolf, and the fact that he was supposed to be in Austria, but he got thrown out on arrival. It was ace. I love Fab Cafe. I don't love casinos, but Mark and Dan will be forgiven, as no gambling happened, just drink.
20/5/7 - The day started very slowly and delicately... I went to town with Emma and bought a hideous dress and ridiculous shoes. Yay! Then I went to see the Holker's, who are ace! I miss seeing Fran & Matt more often. But I was a bit delicate and dull. I made it back to my parents and crashed.
21/5/7 - I had 2 lunch dates. Woo! I saw Charlotte, who I love and miss so much. I wish I was better at phoning her. And then I found Andy and we had pudding. I then went on another shopping trip with Emma where we failed to find anything we wanted at Afleck's Palace. I really hope they don't knock it down... The train back to Edinburgh was "interesting" due to two old drunk men, but I handled it so well another passenger told me I should be a nurse or social worker as we got off. Maybe I should... You'd think this is where the adventure ends, yes? No! I met Caroline, Sharon & Anna for a drink near the station. Then I went home. I really liked getting back to my flat.
22/5/7 - I think I went to the cinema with Erin & Erin's Mom. I can't remember what we watched. Oops.
23/5/7 - I must have done nothing. I hope I did. I needed it.
24/5/7 - Jake arrived. Met an ex-colleague at the airport, which was odd. Didn't have orchestra. Went to the pub instead. Met a different ex-colleague on the bus, which was also odd. Then went to a Savoy party. I remember balloons...
25/5/7 - Went to the museum and then to pick up the car for the ROAD TRIP!!! Drove up to Pitlochry with Jake, Erin and Erin's Mom, who is called Wendy, but shall be known as Erin's Mom. I discovered that water is higher on one side of a dam than it is on the other. Odd that.
26/5/7 - We did a tour of the surrounding area, which included Blair Castle, Queen's View, Loch Tay, and Ben Lawer. Or more precisely, Pooh sticks, being a troll, a very old tree, and lots of people being in a phone box. We got back exceedingly late, so had takeaway and didn't go to a gig.
27/5/7 - I was knackered and determined not to get ill, so didn't do much.
28/5/7 - Jake was ill, so didn't do much. I went to a recorder rehearsal. I'm playing in a concert for the 50th anniversary of the Edinburgh Recorder Society. I will be interesting, if not ace.
29/5/7 - Jake left for more adventures, and I went to work. I only went to East Lothian, but it is surprisingly far away. Don't remember the evening...
30/5/7 - East Lothian again. Some strange , strange places. Don't remember the evening again...
31/5/7 - Work. Then I got rained on. And by rained on, I mean RAINED ON! Thunderstorm style. My coat was wet for at least 3 days. So after tea in the nice warm pub with Caroline and Katrina, I went home and had a bath. Mmmm...
1/6/7 - AS IF it's June. Was not intending to do anything, so (of course) I ended up at a party with Erin. A Phat Hat Flat party, to be precise. I wore a Santa hat, which isn't as good as the hat I made 2 days AFTER. Oh well. Erin wore the Busby I made for Iolanthe, and stole the show. We drank far too many Appletinis and slept over.
2/6/7 - Ouch, ouch, ouch. OUCH. Then met Kat and had a curry and good catch up, before going to celebrate Elgar's birthday and mark Sibelius' and Grieg's death in concert form. It was an EXCELLENT concert. I had a pint there, which after Friday's drink consumption meant I was drunk. So I headed to Ken (from work)'s 30th birthday party. Some kind of structured dancing was going on when I arrived, followed by an impromptu improvised show, and pass the parcel. All rather silly, but fun. Then bed. Oh, bed is wonderful.
3/6/7 - I eventually got my ass over to Nikki's flat. I've been meaning to go help her with costumes for the next show for ages, but failed. I have helped now! I made a jester hat, and I am quite proud of it! Woo! And it was ace to catch up with her and gossip and stuff. In fact, stitch and bitch. We are stitch bitches, after all.
4/6/7 - Recorder rehearsal 2. I was awful. I've never had my 'cello change tune that badly through change of heat. It was a very odd experience. And I'm not good enough to play this piece, so I'm going to have to practise. Then I met Caroline and Sharon in Doctor's, where Sam and Gavin and Chris C appeared one by one. I drank too much for a Monday night, and then talked online for too long, probably inappropriately. Not in a rude way - in a dumping my emotions on people way. I thank them both, and apologise.
5/6/7 - At some point today it was 12:34 5/6/7. FACT. Apart from that, I've mostly been angry/grumpy/hilarious/laughing/smug. It's been rather confusing.

There you go.

I have also been buying many buttons from ebay. I'm not sure why just yet...

So, I think the adventure is on now, so I can write it down. And it will be true. I'm going to a rock festival in Copenhagen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited. I've never done a festival before. I'm scared of someone falling on my tent and breaking it. But for some reason I'm less scared of this in Denmark... So I'm going to buy a pink pop up tent, and going to have fun. I'm going with Housemate Erin and her friend Jo. We have to fly to Sweden and then get a train to Denmark. Well, we don't *have* to, but this will make it about £200 altogether, rather than £500. That's good.

I'm going to go now. I'm going to Adam's house for tea. I've not seen him for ages. In fact, all the time this blog covers! Rubbish.

Almost...

I keep almost writing a blog 2 days after my last one, and then thinking that it's too soon not doing it for 2 weeks. Oops.

Basically, nothing in my life has changed. But I am pretty happy about that, so there. And I have been on lots of mini adventures. I feel like I'm living up to my blog's name. And I've got other mini adventures planned. This makes me happy.

I'm in the process of planning a larger-than-mini adventure, but don't want to tell you about that until I know for sure, as I've been getting over excited and don't want to be disappointed if it all falls through. I do need to make sure I build up flexi time though, which could be tricky this week, as today is my only day out the office. Speaking of which, I really should go!!! So still haven't updated much. Oh well.